Hi folks,
I have never before taken part in forums, no X or Instagram for this old timer but for once I thought that my thoughts and experiences might just help some of my fellow big C sufferers.
A quick summary of my position is from symptoms similar to Crone and Daren and others my tumour was picked up late, by chance and very enlarged. That lead to removal of a lung and severe heart damage. Let’s get in the good news, I’m 7 years down the line after long spells in hospital two rough periods of chemotherapy, skin cancer and shingles but I’m here and at the moment feeling fine after a second outbreak has at the moment been controlled.
Now what I wanted to ask/say is that I’ve had many very dark spells and I’m not sure if my way of coping is unique or just stupid. It’s difficult to explain when looking back even a short while, but my way of dealing with the worst times was to “fold” into myself?? Sit on the chair or edge of the bed with my hands on my knees and my head down for so long I’d get a neck ache. I’m not sure where I went in my head, but it was a quiet but peacefully dark place, and I wanted no interference from anyone other than family in the house. I’d be very emotional if someone called and started to ask me how I was feeling, while wishing they would go. I eventually moved on from those times with the love, help and understanding of those close by who still now don’t know the debt of gratitude I owe them.
To end with the wise words of my heart consultant then at St Toms Dr McDermaid, ‘fight to win the war, but then you prepare for the next battle as it will surely come and if it doesn’t lucky you.’
To those I’ve known, some briefly that haven’t won the battle, may your God go with you.
